The other day driving in my car I had an aha moment. I have been thinking a lot about why this is a hot button issue for me... here is what I came to. (I know this is a small part of the reason. A lot has to do with me and my confidence and how I grew up)
I was sparked when someone forwarded me and e-mail about a diet that they thought worked great! You know the usuaal guarenteed 5 pound loss in two weeks! I was looking the diet over and some staples are saltin crackers and hot dogs... HOT DOGS.. do you know what are in hot dogs. This is another blog so I am not going to get into it but here is what I have to say about diets. Most of the time they are not about getting healthy. They are about dropping weight, whatever the cost to your actual health.
When people pass on a diet.. isn't that just a "polite" way of saying "I think you could loss a few pounds". Essentially calling the person fat. I know this is not every girl out there. There may be a lot of people that don't think twice about recieving a new diet e-mail. I also know that there are a lot of girls out there who are already stuggling with body image. And I don't think I am wrong in saying that weight is one of the biggest hot points.
I need to research more to see if it is just me thinking crazy. But this is what I have for now. And for all you diet passers out there. I don't want a diet. I never will. As a matter of fact I hate that word. Living healthy. Diet...ikhhn.;sdljvc;awu.. Living Healthy..much better (if that is what you are doing).
Saturday, May 22, 2010
Sunday, May 16, 2010
Image
I had a conversation with a friend the other day about my struggle with image and dieting. I have decided that the new focus of my writing will be mostly on two things. #1 Body image and my experience with it in my daily life. Questions I have, struggles I see as well as positive movements out there. #2 My faith. Why? because it is a vital piece of my life. And affects everything I do.
Ok so back on track to diets and body image. Whenever this issue is brought up I literally run the other way! Ice cream? I think so, anything that is not supportive of the diet mentality. Why? I am still trying to discover that. I think it has to do with a couple things. The fact that I see people take diets to far. Reasoning behind the diet frustrates me. People who think they are not beautiful. By who's standards? I have heard it all. Some guy makes you feel like you are not the "ideal" pretty girl he is looking for. Parents have expectations for you. You want to keep up to the image that society shoves in our face every day on every magazine. Skinny is the only way to be pretty. I can't do anything about that pain. And I really feel like it is something that scars so many girls. I am scarred.
It is so hard for me to hear someone talk about their struggles with image and not take it to heart. I wish that the words "God made you perfect with an image in mind" would help. But this type of wound is deeper than that.
Sometimes I think I am crazy about this. Does anyone else feel the same? Does anyone else have a hate for the image that is out there and put on TV. Showing little girls what they should look like. I know I need to be more productive with my anger and start getting involved in something that can actually make a difference. I don't know if that would make me feel worse or like I am moving in the right direction.
Ok so back on track to diets and body image. Whenever this issue is brought up I literally run the other way! Ice cream? I think so, anything that is not supportive of the diet mentality. Why? I am still trying to discover that. I think it has to do with a couple things. The fact that I see people take diets to far. Reasoning behind the diet frustrates me. People who think they are not beautiful. By who's standards? I have heard it all. Some guy makes you feel like you are not the "ideal" pretty girl he is looking for. Parents have expectations for you. You want to keep up to the image that society shoves in our face every day on every magazine. Skinny is the only way to be pretty. I can't do anything about that pain. And I really feel like it is something that scars so many girls. I am scarred.
It is so hard for me to hear someone talk about their struggles with image and not take it to heart. I wish that the words "God made you perfect with an image in mind" would help. But this type of wound is deeper than that.
Sometimes I think I am crazy about this. Does anyone else feel the same? Does anyone else have a hate for the image that is out there and put on TV. Showing little girls what they should look like. I know I need to be more productive with my anger and start getting involved in something that can actually make a difference. I don't know if that would make me feel worse or like I am moving in the right direction.
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Dear Music,
Dear Music,
Thank you for all that you bring to my life. Today I was at the gym and right around 9:00 my body was telling me that I was tired. My ear phone fell out and for a couple seconds I debated just throwing in the towl and going home. Then I hear "Hate me now" playing in my other ear. I put the other ear phone in and made sure that was all I could hear. The music became my thoughts. I couldn't think about anything else at that point. All I could do was feel the emotions that song brings. I not only was back in workout mode but I was ready to hit it hard.
There are songs that speak to my life. The lyrics seem like they are describing my life. And its like some how hearing those words helps me cope. Sometimes it is screaming the words of the songs along with the singer that brings healing. Pretending like you are singing to the person who broke your heart or to the world who doesn't seem to understand. And sometimes the lyrics move me to tears. Maybe there are lyrics that resonate with me. Words that I have not been able to speak.
I can't sleep... there is something missing. Tonight I seek that song that speaks to my soul. The song that vocalizes the feeling I have. A song that reminds me someone else out there thought the same thing.
I have been listening to a lot of tunes without purpose lately. I miss my country music. My coffee shop tunes that are full of soul. Tomorrow is a new day.
Thank you for all that you bring to my life. Today I was at the gym and right around 9:00 my body was telling me that I was tired. My ear phone fell out and for a couple seconds I debated just throwing in the towl and going home. Then I hear "Hate me now" playing in my other ear. I put the other ear phone in and made sure that was all I could hear. The music became my thoughts. I couldn't think about anything else at that point. All I could do was feel the emotions that song brings. I not only was back in workout mode but I was ready to hit it hard.
There are songs that speak to my life. The lyrics seem like they are describing my life. And its like some how hearing those words helps me cope. Sometimes it is screaming the words of the songs along with the singer that brings healing. Pretending like you are singing to the person who broke your heart or to the world who doesn't seem to understand. And sometimes the lyrics move me to tears. Maybe there are lyrics that resonate with me. Words that I have not been able to speak.
I can't sleep... there is something missing. Tonight I seek that song that speaks to my soul. The song that vocalizes the feeling I have. A song that reminds me someone else out there thought the same thing.
I have been listening to a lot of tunes without purpose lately. I miss my country music. My coffee shop tunes that are full of soul. Tomorrow is a new day.
Thursday, May 6, 2010
Winks
So lately I have this feeling that God is looking out for me. I can’t even explain it..it is just this feeling in the pit of my stomach. The kind of feeling I used to have at camp but more mature now.
Life is not always easy as a single. Not that it is easy as a couple but loneliness is in the top group of the worst feelings.
The past couple weeks I have been praying for bravery before my feet even hit the floor. I pray that God will walk with me through the day and help me become the woman he planned me to be. I have also been doing yoga at the end of my day and reflecting/praying.
There have been a couple crazy things that have happened. I was having a down day and then I came out of the gym (after it was raining) and I seriously felt like the sun was shining on me. I looked around and there were clouds everywhere except for the little piece of sky above me which had the sun shining down.
I know I know… so cheesy and doesn’t seem real. I agree. All I can do is smile and wish that everyone could experience the feeling.
When I look over the past couple months I realize how much of a rollercoaster my life has been. It is not the way I want to live my life. I am working on controlling my emotions a little more. Living by my heart has always been something that I prided myself in. I now see that I need more of a balance between my head and my heart.
Well you live and you learn right.
Life is not always easy as a single. Not that it is easy as a couple but loneliness is in the top group of the worst feelings.
The past couple weeks I have been praying for bravery before my feet even hit the floor. I pray that God will walk with me through the day and help me become the woman he planned me to be. I have also been doing yoga at the end of my day and reflecting/praying.
There have been a couple crazy things that have happened. I was having a down day and then I came out of the gym (after it was raining) and I seriously felt like the sun was shining on me. I looked around and there were clouds everywhere except for the little piece of sky above me which had the sun shining down.
I know I know… so cheesy and doesn’t seem real. I agree. All I can do is smile and wish that everyone could experience the feeling.
When I look over the past couple months I realize how much of a rollercoaster my life has been. It is not the way I want to live my life. I am working on controlling my emotions a little more. Living by my heart has always been something that I prided myself in. I now see that I need more of a balance between my head and my heart.
Well you live and you learn right.
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