Wow.

Heard this statement today. And it hit me hard.Things to ponder on..

The paradox of our age:

We have taller buildings but shorter tempers
We buy more but enjoy less
We have more experts but more problems
We read too seldom and watch too much TV
We have added years to life but not life to years
We have done larger things but not better thing
We have cleaned the air but polluted our soul
We have higher incomes but lower morals
We have more acquaintances but fewer friends
Wider freeways but narrower viewpoints
More conveniences but less time
More medicine but less wellness
Bigger houses and smaller families
We multiply our possessions but reduce our values
We have been to the moon and back but can't cross the street to meet our neighbor
We have learned to rush but not to wait
We talk too much, love too seldom and lie all too often
More effort but less success
These are the days of more leisure but less fun
These are the days of two incomes but more divorces. Of fancier houses but broken homes.

Today there is so much on display in the showroom window of life but so little in the stockroom

I miss the days of playing in the street, making forts and using your imagination. This next generation of kids has so much information at their fingertips. We have made some great advances in technology but at what cost?

I cry

I cry because I don't feel like I can call you. I think twice when I pick up the phone and most of the time I put it back down.

Because life has changes for you

Because I love you

Because I never want to see you hurt and I want this to be forever. don't ever call me with bad news on this one

Because experience has taught me that this kind of "change" is not so much change as it is the end

Because I will no longer be the one sharing all the inside jokes with you

Because even if you didn't want things to change they have to

Because I feel guilty that I don't want to know this person more

Because you took the time to get to know me. You cared for me unlike anyone that I have ever had in my life

Because you loved me for me

Because I feel like our friendship lays in my hands and I don't want to fight for a new version of our friendship

Because I worry about you

Because I haven't seen you in a year and I don't know when I will see you again

Because I haven't gotten the usual "I'm sorry I forgot your Birthday" call that I have grown to love

Friend... I fear for you this means that the gaps of time that we don't talk becomes longer. I fear that you will fall into that pattern where you feel bad that its been so long that you don't call anymore. Friend. I cry because that night you were celebrating a new beginning, I realized it was the end of us.

I cry because the one person I want to talk to about this is the one that I can't.

I will not fight for it if you don't. If you don't call I will move on because I have to. From the bottom of my heart I wish the best for you. I don't know what I would have done without you. And this is not goodbye to you forever, just goodbye to this version of us. Some of the walls have to come up again. I am sorry that you may not know why. This is how it has to be for me to move on. This is my closure.

See you when I see you buddy.